An illusion in disguise

To be your authentic self from day one. How to say today I have a bad day without being judged or seen as weak?

But then the question is why it is so important to be seen strong? Because it feels like people give up on you. And if they do why it is such a big deal?

I think it is not about being weak, but rather feeling that there is no space to grow in those directions if you feel there is a restriction there.

It is like I have to prove myself from now on.

But is that the reality? Is that what the others indeed think of you? Because they saw a one time reaction.

It’s like they don’t trust I will be well.

Why do I limit myself in the horizontal limitations? They did not invade my space. They cannot do it anyway. The physical and mental limitations are there by default. No one can enter them, so what’s the point?

Why do I believe so much in these horizontals? Why do I look so much at them as something that is real when it’s not?

Because of that feeling of feeling overwhelmed and invaded — that was an illusion.

To know there is nothing the other can do.