Questions and thoughts for you

I wonder why you’re still around. Why do you still write and say hi? You don’t talk or ask many questions to get a conversation going. What is it you’re looking for?

What are your intentions? You’re still wondering or trying to see that if? I hope not, as that should be on a mutual side, I believe. To be together in it, as I believe that is actually better.

Or is it me? I drove you into this by asking to see you then, by writing you about those things. It could have been me the one that started all this and I did not say to you let’s stop, as I did the other time.

There are things I don’t understand. There are things I am not able to see. For whatever reason they do exists. I wonder though is it indeed true? What can connect us and make things work? That’s what I wanted to know.

Do you think it would have worked? Do you find that common ground? Maybe you see it, but is it indeed there or it is just an appearance? Maybe you believe I am that person you saw… and my mistake here if so.

I got things going but on a path that is not mine. Yes, I am talkative, I do have things to say, but I am not my friend. I don’t talk to talk. I talk to learn, to gain.

I believe you’re the type of person who will enjoy someone who is happy just to share and who wants to have someone there to listen, to receive.

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Maybe what I see is indeed what is to see. It’s not that I don’t see, but that I don’t see what I want to see — something that is not, indeed.

Afterthought:

I was looking for something that was not there even from the very beginning. Will I see it this time? Probably this is what I wonder all along…

Now thinking about things, I generally receive those information, they come to me without looking. I just pay attention and observe. Probably that’s my mistake… I try to find something that is not.

If I don’t see, it doesn’t exist or is not meant for me to see at that moment in time. To go with that for now.